All my life, I’ve wanted to be successful in a field I love and educated, acknowledged for my intelligence as much as for whatever talents I may possess. A pretty basic human desire, I think. My problem is this: my education is in a field I love, though it’s not complete yet, so I cannot find employment in said field at this time, while my current work is in a career that deliberately set out to “never have to work in again”. While I resent the fact that I’m making so little money for such physical labor, I have to admit that I’m good at what I do and I do take “professional” pride in hearing compliments or seeing product sell out. I’ve accumulated a lot of student loan debt, and I know that I won’t be satisfied until I have a B.S. after my name at the very least, but I find myself wondering if I should just stay in the field I’m in, where I could obviously be a success. Of sorts.
The real problem is this: I am afraid that by the time I’m in a position to go back and finish my degree, I’ll feel like it’s not worth it. I’m afraid I’ll go to my death bed unsatisfied, yet having found enough job satisfaction to convince myself that I’m ok with it.
Thanks for reading my mental diarrhea; I’ll keep you posted as to what develops.